Pre-college What-if's.

I've gotten caught up on the what if's and I probably haven't been myself lately because of it. 

What if my roommate drives me absolutely crazy? 

What if everyone hates me? What if no one even notices I'm there? 

What if I'm the only one without friends? 

What if I hate college. & miss high school tons? There's no going back.. 

What if college doesn't live up to the hype it's recieved my entire life???

What if I do get married quick like everyone says I'm going to?

What if I don't stay close with Madds, Nicole, Rache, and Jess? 

What if I never see my missionary friends again? 

Guys, scary stuff. 

Okay fine, half irrational, but really, half completely rational too. 

Faith, right? Everything that happens will happen for a reason, & put my trust in God because He has a plan for me. *deep breaths* it'll all be okay. 

& Hannah Montana knew what she was talking about then when she said, "Life's what you make it, so let's make it rock." You're right Hannah. Life is what I make it. & attitude can be everything. So I guess holla for college! Ready or not, here I come.

A World Transformed

I believe in running.

I believe in waking up early to start your day off right.
In pushing yourself to achieve more, setting goals, and working at them.
I believe in running on days when your whole body aches & days when you've got a whole lot to do.
Rain, hail, snow, sun, the beach, the trails, the city, the country. Running has no boundaries.
I believe it makes you happier, more productive, more confident-- an all around better person.
I believe in the bonds and friendships running can form.

I believe in running, but you don't have to just take my word for it.
Because an organization a whole lot bigger than just me believes in running too.
The video is good, but the website is amazing. It's inspiring.  CHECK IT OUT!!!

& if you ever get addicted to running. Let me know.
It feels good, I promise.

SS: I believe in Prayer.

This video was too good not to share. It quickly had me in tears as I realized all the times I've relied on prayer and how much it has helped and blessed me throughout my life. 

I know we have a Heavenly Father who knows each of us individually. 

I know we have a Savior who loves us, and died for us.

& I know that my Heavenly Father hears every single one of my prayers, no matter how insignificant the matter may seem, that he cares, he loves me, and he hears me. 

so next time, you need literally anything.. just give it a try, & pray. 

A final Summer's day.

I still can't accept that school starts, (atleast for them) on Monday. What? Summer ever even happened? 

This summer was nothing like the past 17, maybe because graduating, or work, or just growing up. 

Growing up seems to keep taking people out of my life, but I'm grateful that it won't be taking them. 

[the group concensus was to pose. good poses everyone.]

 [what summer should be]

[siblings & snowcones]

 [I spy a lens cap.. oops]

& with that, I guess we bid summer farewell. 

I like people, & somehow I'd forgotten that.

Sometimes I think without even realizing it, we get too busy for people.

Too busy to truly enjoy their presence, or just a good conversation. 

I've been far too content with the lack of social life I've had going on lately, and I think it's made me appreciate the encounters I have had with people all the more. 

I like previously mentioned boy. I like that we're both runners, and we talk about running together. I liked long-boarding together and his dumb jokes. & I like that I've realized we can be just friends.

I like Kami, from over here. I like people who are real, and kind, and make you feel good about just being you. & she's even lovelier in real life which I didn't even think was possible. I wish she weren't moving so we could just become best friends. 

I like my co-workers.. in fact, I absolutely love my job because of them. I like that we can all just be ourselves, even considering how completely different we are from one another. 

I like Madd & Jess. There's something about spending time with best friends who know you completely that is completely fulfilling and I think necessary in life. 

I like running into people at Walmart, the lady my mom is friends with, someone who used to be in my ward.. it's those moments when you see them and debate if you should ignore or go over and acknowledge them, and I've learned I'm always happier when I choose the second. 

& as hard as goodbye's are, I can't wait for all the new people that this chapter of my life will bring. 

Summer Fantasies.

I've grown to love the aloneness of my porch late at night; swooning over the super moon, or nights like tonight, wrapping myself up in a blanket, experiencing the beauty and power of the summer thunderstorm that's raging on around me. It's safe to say it's one of my new favorite places. 

But I do dream of someday sharing those nights with him. Talking & laughing, reminiscing & dreaming together under beautiful summer moons; or letting you wrap me up in your arms as the rain pours down around us. 

& obviously I can't help wonder who 'him' will be. 

At least for right now, I wish I could choose him to be you. Because I've never met someone who smiles with their eyes the way you do. & I don't think there's anything I could have done to keep myself from falling. Your sun-kissed skin & golden hair, your laugh, your sweetness, & goodness, I just want to call you mine.  It's incredibly unreasonable.. but hey, summer fantasies, right?

What do you believe in?

I believe in holidays. They're just a little thing to celebrate. & it's fun to get dressed up.

I believe in splurging. But only on some things.. lipstick. running shoes. & backpacks to name a few. 

I believe in exercising. Because a healthier you is a happier you.

I believe in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. 

I believe in people. Every single person is capable of great things, you just got to accept them for who they are and give them a chance. 

I believe in theraputic shopping. Just kidding. I'm too poor to believe in that.. although I still completely do.

I believe in eating. Not calorie counting excessively. Not weird diets. Just having a normal, healthy yet enjoyable diet. Today that meant two cookies, a little bit of cake, and a little too much nutella. & I believe that's totally alright. 

I believe in journal writing. Rereading journals you come to know yourself better, and therefore become better. 

I believe in being yourself. & doing the things you like. 

I believe in being kind always and no matter what. Because everyone is going through something.

& I definitely believe in laughter & that this life is supposed to be a happy one.